Alone and Yourself

After quite sometime, i kind of like of what i had rite now. Do most of the time alone and be here and there alone.

Last nite i spend my time alone at home. My siblings is not at home, so left me alone for iftar time and tv time after terawikh. I cook fried instant noodle and eat my Jco donut alone and went to masjid for isya' and terawikh and spend the rest of the night watching Ugly Betty, Lipstick Jungle and Main In Manhattan. Sound so sad and so lonely. But then surprisingly nope. Im fine with what i had last nite and am completely ok with it.

While watchin those series and movie, suddenly my mind pop up a question .......... when will my partner will come to me and do romantic thing like in in the Movie "Maid in Manhattan" or any movie that show the true love and sacrifice and forgiveness and back to your love partner......... hmmmmmmm i wish and still wish......... ah, susah-susah, i did that to my partner..........but when will my partner do that to me.......... hmmmmm speechless again........well, thats why its call Movie. If thats not Movie, they will called Reality............. hehehehehe

After the break up, what i do feel is Lonely when am alone, but then NOW when am alone, i dont really feel lonely. It has turn to the point where i spend my own time and do what ever i want to do. I cook, buy, shopping, reading, watching tv, eating and anything that i could do alone, i still continue and enjoy every second of my time.

Still wishing my partner will come.........and i will enjoy my life with it? Yes and still.

Never say Never. I know i will get my Happiness back and I could get the right partner for Me.

Thats why my new tagged is " I will and I could".

I dont want to type my express seems like i won 1 million cheer but my face is start to smile back................ :-)

Till then, Cheers

Jco Donut.........

Dont know why but then am craving for the Donut. Not just any kind of donut, just only 2 type of donut - Jco and Big Apple Donut.

2 Word i could say bout this 2 brand, Yummy and superb.............

Seriously, i love it and like it the moment it touch my tongue. The dough is so fluffy, the icing and the feeling inside the dough and also the sweetness of the donut. Simply delicious and i still can imagine how does it taste.

Compared from Jco and Big Apple, I kind of prefer to the Big Apple. Reason is their dough taste better compared to Jco and even firmer on the dough. The feeling is not that sweet. Urgh.......... Love it and Like it more........

Well, there goes my diet.................. kuikuikuikuikui

Till then, cheers

House - AXN

Watch final season for House last nite and i satisfied with what they did.........

Obviously, we can tell that House is the "one" who really need help. Be so mean to the others, sarcastic and he's word is rude. Even though he doing that, but then he always know what he is doing. I kind of envy and impress of what he did. Reality, thats the way it is. No pain no gain.

I have seen some of my friends acting like House character and i could conclude into 2 perception. He is really like that and the other one is, they trying to hide something. I was rite when the last part when he is in coma and he met his dead patience, and he kind of confess that being in depression,lonely, down, sick and ill make him dont want to continue his life. She reply saying " You cant always get what you want". He nodded and move out from that place.

He really need someone and he is trying level best to get happiness. When we knew bout this matter, they actually need help. I know what does he mean and completely understand cause I'm in that position as well. Just be courteous and be alert of others need. Dont be selfish dude...... ( Remind to me as well)

The word " You cant always get what you want" bring lot of meaning to me. Its is true and there is lots of reason lies behind it and we cant even know the answer. Only the Almighty could say it. I just leave the answer Him but at the mean time, i will try my level best to get what i want. Until to what extend............ Wakaranai..- I dont know - Mane le teman tau yob. Its not easy but its not impossible.

"I will and I could"

Till then, Cheers

New day comes.........

13th September is the date that i take my scroll for a degree for the past 4 years. I still cant believe of what i have achieve and what i had left for the pass 4 years.

Its been up and down, break up, meet up, new job, new friends, fighting, lost friends, vacation, birthday celebration, new movies, new way of thinking and many more that i still cant imagine and i cant recall.

Im still looking to the bright future and hoping that one day i could get of what i dream off. Every day i pray to the All Mighty so that He could help me and support me in any ways so that i could acheive of what i want. He is so fair and He know what He is doing. I definitely trust him and i Trust myself as well. Cause if not me trust myself who else...........

Insyallah, i will do my level best to get what i want it and Never and never say STOP in my life.

May Allah Bless me and you too

Till then........

Cheers

Teman Palsu

Kind of weird title i gave rite......but then the word came from article of narcistbandit called teman palsu......

According to him, teman palsu means buddy who is fake to you. ( direct translation which bring a straight meaning). Well, its really clear on the point and you know what does it mean. I don't plan to elaborate more but then all i would like to share is what really happen to me about the term of "fake buddy".

This happen during when i was in Uni where at that time im still young and vibrant and we do a bit naughty and bad. Don't blame me of being naughty cause that is my nature dude..... hehehehehe. Boys will be always boys remember.......

So, what really happen, i kind of know this fella where he is known to everybody on his character and pass history. Unfortunately i dont know him well. And being me, i have a weakness of hard to say NO. So, i kind of closed with him and do most of the things together.

The rumours spread out all over uni and say i do bad stuff with him. Its brings bad name to me and well i didnt realised it at first. Until when i stop by at my friends place and he kind of give a one kind reaction to me. I asked why...... he just ignore me and shock me. Hmmmmmm what have i done to him?

Well, i just dont take it seriously, but i just take a moment and observed. Then i realised some of my fren start to have distance from me. I dont know why and i dont like it. So what i do is talk to my fren who close with me. He tell what happen and again i was shock on the news. Then i confront to my friend who gave distance and he kind of shock. I dont care what will he think but then all i want to do is just clear the mess.

Then i realised, theres no point for me to do that. I just act like nothings happen and be friend with anybody who want to be friend with me. At that time, i know who is my friend who is the fake buddy.

Like what i used quote
" Friends will go when we have trouble, TRUE friends will give their hand even we dont asked for it"
" Fake buddy will be only when you happy, TRUE friends will be beside you when you in a sad mood."

Not all friends can be our buddy but we still can be friends with anybody.

Till then, Cheers

Stupid system......

Hehehehehehe,

I guess this blog system is running crazy. Bengang giler ngan system...... and now pun dah jadi bangang dah........

sorry oguys ngan my word but then i can take it. Waht ever i post and today i type on 8th Sept still they posted it on 31st Aug.......

Gosh............

btw, today is a great morning and lovely day to run

Till then cheers

Nicq

Hungry during fasting month

Well, if not hungry it doesn't called fasting month. Well, remind me during my first time i start fasting...... hehehehehe. I start fasting when i was standard 3. Before that, i get the privilege by NOT Fasting during the Ramadan.... Hehehehe.

I still remember how hard it be and sooner or later i get used to it. There's a time where my mom wake up and nearly slip the sahur, we all only had fresh milk. I manage to run through the day only with the help of fresh milk.

Kind of weird where i saw some of us not fasting during fasting month. Well it just only a month. Just go through with it without thinking of hungry.... what cause of problem will make you suffer?

I notice one thing, Yes, Ramadan is a special month and before Ramadan came , people kind of make some sort of celebration or event like picnic or event before fasting month came.As if there's no more picnic after Ramadan....I wonder......... it looks like when Ramadan came for the whole year or the rest of the life. Its really does not make sense.

To me, moderate should be the way it is. Well, Ramadan came and we cherish the holy month. That what i normally do and practice.

During fasting month as well, you can see there are various type of food that you hard to find during normal month will appear. Matter of sedap or not different issue. But its come's out during fasting month. I always make it as a special month where i not really keen to have rice , i mean normal rice as one of my meal. I take anything beside rice. Mee, Mee Hoon, Pasta, bread, pita, kueh, anything but not rice. If there's a rice, i only take nasi dagang, briani, kerabu, tomato as long it not white normal rice. hehehehehehe.

I guess it because i used to it and been practice it since my young age.

How bout you guys, what is your Ramadan looks like?

Cheers